Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about my purpose and current stage in life. I don’t know why, but this topic has been very heavy on my heart and mind for some months now. It almost feels like I just graduated college all over again and am filled with a million thoughts, trying to figure out my life in such a short time span. I think one of my problems is that I think too much (notice how I started off with “I think”). I’ve always had this problem, constantly overthinking, overanalyzing every situation, and feeling like the world is sitting on my shoulders. Yes, dramatic, I know, but it’s true.
When I started this blog last year it was a result of me taking a leap of faith. This might sound strange for a lot of people, but this was a very thought out move that I had been “thinking” about for a long time. Unfortunately I may have only posted a few times before I completely overthought the situation, and let the feeling of fear sink in. It sank in so much so that it took me 6 months to finally come back on here and write again. The reason I wanted to start this blog in the first place was because I love photography and I also love helping people. Put those two passions of mine together, and you have a blog that is comprised of pictures and information trying to help and inspire others. Well, quickly after that “great idea” came and went, reality sat in and I became discouraged. I saw so many other bloggers and photographers doing such great things and having such great content. I thought to myself, “how could I possibly ever compare to those people?”. I felt silly for trying to make something out of nothing, especially with amateur skill. See, I have dreams like so many others, and just like so many others, sometimes those dreams feel like only dreams.
I had hung up a great quote in our room that says “Doubt Kills More Dreams than Failure Ever Will”. I purposely put it up around the time that I started this blog so that way on tough days I can remind myself that not doing something is sometimes worse than actually doing that something. Again, since I’m an over thinker, I needed a reminder that my own mind (doubts) can be my worst enemy. I think a lot of people can relate to this in some way. I have a feeling that so many people could have actually accomplished so much more than they did in their lifetime if only they had TRIED. Simply tried. This word “try” sounds like such an easy thing to do, but I know firsthand how crippling doubt can make someone feel, so eventually that word “try” sounds more like trying to move a mountain. However, Jesus did tell us that if anyone commands a mountain to move and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.
I may have not figured out my life’s purpose yet, but I do know that I have dreams and that those dreams will never play out if I never act on them. I don’t know where tomorrow will take me nor do I know what next year will look like. I do know, however, that it starts with today. If I want to find out more about my purpose and want to see dreams become more than just dreams then I need to “try”. So this is me trying, trying to not let doubt discourage me or prevent me from starting something.
I hope if anyone else is feeling hopeless, helpless, or full of doubt, that this will remind you that you still have time to try. Whatever trying may look for you, I hope that you put your best foot forward and just go for it. Like Babe Ruth said, “Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game”.
May you go out there and hit it out of the ball park.